Join us on part 2 of 8 in this series of Jesus supernaturally healing me from a traumatic assault that no matter what I did, I could not completely heal from. In my situation, I had been born again when the assault happened but I was not spirit filled. In the weeks and months after the assault I found myself dealing with uncontrollable amounts of rage, terror, hate, fear, sadness, deep loss, bitterness, pain and confusion. I had thought if I left town and moved home, the trauma would stay behind. But because the trauma was INSIDE of me, when I moved, it came with me.
In the weeks to follow the Lord allowed me to have an encounter with the two demonic entities who had been present at the assault and whose assignment was to ‘check up on me and see if the event had indeed done what it was intended to do.’ However, the Holy Spirit was faithful to tell and show me that although they wanted to completely destroy and annihilate me, they actually could not, because I belonged to Jesus. That was both the reason they hated me so much and the reason they could not do anything to me. There was a deep sense of peace knowing that I belonged to the Lord.
Though the assailant was caught 3 days after the assault and charged with 298 years worth of crime, the legal process was very painful. After being subpoenaed to testify 3 times and every time the trial process started over again, I cratered and fell apart. The Lord had sent a spirit filled Christian counselor to me who had been telling me for 6 months the Lord was calling me to Galveston, Texas and at that point I finally agreed to go. Although the Lord started working the moment I got to the island, recovery was slow and the trauma was very hard to separate out of me due to the age it had happened and nature of the event being while I was sleeping in my home.
10 years after the assault I had finally recovered enough to be able to finish my college degree, get married and started raising a family but I still knew I was not actually healed. I was told by every authority I knew from parents, to pastors, to Christian counselors to prayer partners to experts that there would be no ‘REAL’ HEALING this side of heaven, the best I could hope for was to manage my symptoms and lean on God’s help to endure the result of the event. I did not accept that. I knew that Jesus could do miracles. I didn’t know how to get one from Him. I didn’t know how to qualify for one. I had no idea HOW He could heal something that couldn’t be reversed, but every year I pressed and pressed, spending day after day in His Word, doing everything I knew to do from counseling to eating right, being planted in my local church, doing missions work, praying, speaking the Word.
Finally at the age of 40 the Lord Himself pulled me aside and told me to look at the 4 gospels and see WHAT He said and did when ANYONE came to HIM PERSONALLY and asked to be healed.
He NEVER said no, even to the Syrophoenician woman who technically didn’t have the right to have Him move on her behalf. He did anyway. And when He healed He always healed completely, as though the event, injury/trauma/problem/disease had never happened. Lepers got clean skin and digits back. Blind people could see 100% for the rest of their life. There was nothing that He couldn’t or wouldn’t do for someone who wanted to be healed. Because I had asked so many times to be healed and was still dealing with anxiety and depression I had mistakenly thought there was something ‘wrong with me’ and Jesus didn’t like me and that is why He hadn’t healed me. But, when He showed me this from the Word, all of a sudden I believed Him. One minute I didn’t believe He would heal me, the next moment faith was there.
At that point He started leading me through a series of events where He opened my spiritual ears during an interview with Freddy Hayler on Sid Roth. I heard the music of heaven, and ordered the CD ‘Angel Song.’ As I put the CD on and played the 4th song, ‘Healing waters’ a warm, soft power started flowing through me. Jesus was healing me! The anointing went through me every day for 2 ½ weeks until it was so strong I had to ask the Lord to pull back. When He did the only thing that was left was this ‘in love with Jesus’, completely giddy, head over heels in love with the Lord Himself.
There is much more to this story and much more to tell about not only how Jesus can heal us NO MATTER what has happened, but how He can fill us with His power, and restore our purpose and destiny to us even if we are 40 or even 80 years old. If you are some one you know is struggling with the impact of an assault, abuse, trauma, a long list of things like I was and you have cried out to God over and over and asked ‘why haven’t you healed me?’ This episode is for you. If you do not know Jesus as savior, you can today. He loves you, He has always loved you, He has never NOT loved you, no matter what people told you about Him, or what you have either been through or done yourself.
We look forward to connecting to you on the next 6 segments of this series, and on social media. We are praying for YOU and are believing the Lord to do the supernatural in YOUR life as well. Thank you for sharing these episodes with any woman you know who needs to know for herself by experience that Jesus CAN and WILL heal even the worst and deepest hurts we have experienced.
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